Thursday, July 21, 2005

Mid-Week Filler

Like what I've said before, its hard to have a life when your computer is malfunctioning.

For three days, my modem isn't working. I am already entertaining the possibility of buying a second hand external modem so that I could link myself up with the cyberworld again at home.

That means, going against my planned expenses for 15 days. I spent an extra cash to buy some groceries at home, my extra income from the text chatting wont come until the end of the month.

I failed to reach my expected income. Good thing, Im not really expecting extra expenses.

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Last night, my mom's request made me somehow disturbed.

She was asking me if I could surrender the 8K we recieve from my dad's compensation to further reinforce our ready cash next month.

The problem is, I am having some difficulties accepting the fact that if I surrender the 8K, I wont have anything left to save. Besides, my entire budgeting system would be mess up since I will get confused about which bills to pay.

I wish it won't come to that. I wish that we would have a stable supply of income till my sister graduates from college, or I would have an income that would match the money I get from the business.

Lately, I am having thoughts of moving on to greener pastures, or even looking for an extra job that can earn me more income.

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I find it ironic that everyday, I converse with people in english.

But I am having more difficulties expressing my thoughts in the same language these days when it comes to composing my entries, unlike some months ago.

Is it because I am experience some writer's block?

Is it because I am more expressive when writing in Filipino?

Its been a while since I wrote this way. And the more words I write, the more its difficult for me what to say next.

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Tomorrow would be Friday.

Boss was giving hints yesterday that he would need me again on Saturday. Maybe, its a payback for the absence I incurred last Tuesday.

I just wish that the company wont add to my troubles in adjusting my body clock. Ever since, I tend to stick to routines. And these unexpected duties further messes up my attempts to establish a new routine ever since I started this job more than a month ago.

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