Mimi

Adopted from Tenchu's Blog

I wish I was a different ethnicity.
I have an eating disorder.
I'm short.
I'm tall.
I think I'm really attractive.
I prefer winter over summer.
I'm a geek.
I'm a shopaholic.
I'm reasonably intelligent.
I'm attracted to girls.
I'm attracted to boys.
I like British accents.
I smoke regularly.
I drink regularly.
I smoke socially.
I drink socially.
I get drunk easily.
I do drugs.
I will never date a bad kisser.
I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
I'm religious.
I'm not religious but have morals.
I lie frequently.
I'm impulsive.
I'm hardworking.
I liked "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind".
"She's All That" is one of my favourite movies.
I'm good at History.
I speak more than two languages.
I enjoy taking pictures.
I like spending money on myself.
I like spending money on others.
I have a regular income.
I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
I pay my own bills.
I rely on my parents for money.
I can cook.
I enjoy cleaning.
Tidyness is a must in my life.
I like clutter.
My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
I have heard of Blonde Redhead.
I enjoy Blonde Redhead.
I'm fashion-conscious.
I have good taste.
People tell me I have good taste.
I excel academically.
I'm told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
I'm good at sports.
I'm good at certain sports.
I couldn't do sports to save my life.
I'm creative.
I'm artistically inclined.
I wanna be an artist when I grow up.
I wanna be an engineer when I grow up.
I eat when I'm upset.
I cannot adapt to change.
I'm interested in politics.
I have shoplifted.
I download MP3s.
I've done underage drinking.
I've gone underage clubbing.
I can dance reasonably well.
I can dance extremely well.
I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
I can sing.
I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
I can swim.
I enjoy surveys.
I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
I keep a journal.
My teachers don't like me.
I enjoy controversy. (as long as its not mine)
I can be a bitch/bastard.
I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
I have tattoos.
I've been in a nudist colony.
I'm not sure if I want to have children.
I'm not sure if I'll get married.
I know who I will marry.
I'm interesting.
I'm a good liar.
People enjoy talking to me.
I annoy people from time to time.
I'm a born leader.
I'm a born leader but shouldn't lead.
I enjoy felching.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a shoe fetish.
I watch "Sex and the City".
I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
I wanna be J.Lo.
I cut myself.
I've cut myself.
I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
I hate popular people.
I think cheerleading is a sport.
I'm photogenic.
I live in Chucks.
I think graffiti is art.
I have dated a criminal.
I have been cheated on.
I have cheated on someone.
I have a temper.
I like playgrounds.
I dance in the rain.
I'm obsessed with Shakespeare.
I have tanlines.
My favourite color is pink.
My favourite color is black.
I would classify myself as emo.
I'm musically inclined.
I like listening to music.
I like music-blasting cars.
Thongs are comfortable.
I like flip-flops.
I know what monogamy is...
...and I believe in it.
I wanna be a social worker when I grow up.
I have sibling/s.
My sibling/s annoy me.
I think "South Park" is funny.
I believe in LOVE.

Countdown To Batangas

6:30 AM

My alarm clock didn't wake me up. I guess, my morning schedule has finally managed to get into my routine. I had to get up immediately since I promised my sister that I would personally wake her up for her practicum. Since, it woke her too early, it took her another 30 minutes just to get up. I made sure that I won't fall asleep as I watched her prepare to leave the house.

8:00 AM

I was online since I got up. Been browsing the blogs of my classmates in college. I've been checking the recent updates on PEx again. I also opened a link at G4M and IRC. Surprisingly, I wasn't as enthusiastic as I was after I declared a state of lull (peace) between me and him.

For the longest time I was active in G4M, I am proud to say that I never took hook ups invitations seriously even at the height of my own frustration.

9:00 AM

So far, I have only slept for 5 hours. I needed to take a nap for the long day (and night) ahead.

11:00 AM

Despite my cough and colds, I still went to the gym to pay for my dues. Since I was relatively weak and in a rush today, I cut my work out time from 3 hours to merely 1.5 hours.

Why do I get sick everytime my gym session for the month ends?

2:00 PM

Meeting at the office.

Our client from Seattle flew to Manila to give us a reintroduction about our job. I have learned a great deal about American Culture - which I believe they don't teach in call centers. I hope someone from our Australian account flies here as well so that they could give us an idea about the Australian culture, in which account I belong to.

3:15 PM

I was having a short chat with Dexter, my effeminate colleague.

He said, he met this cute guy at a cinema in Baclaran yesterday. Of course, something happened between them. What Dexter cannot accept is that the guy claimed that he was straight - Dex said that the guy was masculine. But to his astonishment, the apparent straight guy also gave him a job.

I told him that his generation is different from mine. In this age, masculine homosexual guys also knows how to give job.

I'm just wondering though, I never heard of a masculine giving an oral to an effeminate. That's something interesting.

4:15 PM

Just got out of Cherry's Shaw Boulevard. Since we are assigned to provide junk foods for tomorrow's excursion, mom asked me to do the grocery for her. It was fun - despite the fact that I'm already spending beyond my means.

Badtrip, I overspend in my shopping, again I was forced to use my credit card to pay for my items.

5:30 PM

Roy texted me 30 minutes ago. He told me if he could crash in my place since he had nothing to do this afternoon. I told him that I'm cool with it. I could burn him some audio music if he wants to.

Anytime, he would already arrive.

7:30 PM

Planned reunion dinner with ex housemates. We have never seen each other for more than a year. I wonder if I could bring along Roy.

12:00 AM

Planned night-out, If my energy reserves could still allow me. It's probably BED tonight. But, for some reasons why does a part of me wants to see F for the first time?

4:00 AM

Estimated time I would arrive home.

Laglag Brip

"Tsong ang cute nung kasalubong natin, bet ko ata malaglagan ng brip!"

This joke has been runnning around my group everytime we see a cutie. Before, it was a mere joke since undies are always tighter than the pants. There's no chance they would fall off, no matter what stretching we do.

But in my case, ever since I started working out, several of my loosest undies are beginning to slide down whenever Im walking.

I even have to pull them up occasionally so that they would not fall completely.

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I told myself to achieve at least a 170 pound weight before I overhaul my entire undie fleet.

But it seems like Im counting weeks na lang before I really do it.



Pero... if someone really pulls my pants/shorts down at nahigit pati brief ko, even if I have to use my credit card, I will really refleet my undies immediately.

Weekender Potion Number Sixty 9

Totoo ngang ang buhay ay parang isang

gulong, minsan ikaw ang nasa itaas, minsan naman

ikaw ang bumubulusok paibaba.

At dahil naging mabuti sila sa amin ng kami'y

nasa pinaka-ibaba, ngayong kailangan nila ang tulong

namin, hindi namin ito ipagkakait sa kanila...

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Napag-isip isip ko na kahit sobrang active

ng G4M account ko, at kahit na supporter na ako

ng website na iyon, ni minsan ay hindi ko ito

nagamit para ipanglandi o ipang-eyeball sa iba.

Sadya atang nahimbing na sa pagtulog ang

aking kakambal na si Darkstar ngayong mga panahong ito.

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Bakit ganun ang infatuation, kala mo kapag naramdaman

mo siya ay natagpuan mo na ang pag-ibig? Tingin mo

handa mong isuko ang lahat para isang tao

na kakikilala mo pa lang isang linggo

dahil sa tingin mo, that person is the ONE.

Pero ang nakakatuwa, sa nilalim-lalim ng

pakiramdam na ito, ang kanyang itinatagal ay panandalian lamang?

Minsan kahit ang totoong pag-ibig, kaya niyang tumbasan

ng isang daang beses... pero kapag itong pakiramdam na ito'y

wala na,

Matatawa ka na lang at magtataka kung ano ba nakita mo sa taong

nagpa-infatuate sayo, samantalang hindi naman siya kaibig-ibig unang

tingin mo pa lang.

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Ang takot ay nasa isip lamang sabi sa isang kanta...

pero meron akong isang kakilala, dahil sa sobrang pag-iisip

niya na pinagtutulungan siya ng kanyang mga kaibigan,

Mismong ang pinaka-dikit sa kanyang mga tao,

itinapon niya ng basta sa ere.

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Kapag ikaw ay natira

at nang sumunod na araw ay hindi na nagparamdam

sayo ang taong kumuha ng iyong virginity,

It means one thing.

Move on. Tapos na ang silbi mo

sa walang ka kwenta kwenta niyang buhay.

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Never tell your intimate feelings

to a person kapag malakas ang kutob

mong wala siyang pakiramdam sayo.

Masakit ang ma-reject...

at mas masakit ang magamit.

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Lastly,

siguro ang pinaka the best

moments naming magjowa lately

ay tuwing umaga, kung saan ako ang

papasok sa work habang siya naman ay nahihimbing

matulog sa madilim kong kwarto.

Matapos kong magpaalam sa pamamagitan

ng isang halik sa pisngi, siya'y biglaang maalimpungatan

... manghihingi ng baon...

at bago ka tuluyang lumayo sa piling niya

siya'y yayakap ng pagkahigpit-higpit sa iyo

habang isinasandal niya ang kanyang ulo sa iyong

dibdib malapit sa may puso.

Habang unti unting nagkukulay-bughaw ang kalangitan

sa labas ng bintana.

All For The Former Escort Queen

When everyone was going gaga over that TV show Pinoy Big Brother last season, I just ignored it telling myself that the show was for "ordinary" folks. Might as well go geeky or go anime instead by watching Discovery Channel or Animax during the time slot of PBB.

When my mom got hooked up last season, I told her that she's becoming over. First, she's into Teleserye, now she even made patol to PBB. In fact, if not for our new maid, we could have been a die-hard Kapamilya for years to come.

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Come second season and she suddenly lost her interest in PBB.

She said those celebrities were artificial. What they portray in that show only benefits their careers - whether it may be sagging or rising.

But things suddenly changed when I noticed Keanna Reeves.

At first, I thought she would just bring her escort-girl lifestyle inside the Bahay Ni Kuya. I thought she would just do those outrageous stuffs just to boost her starlet image - which most starlet do nowadays just to catch attention from the media.

Speaking of starlets, who was that pathetic girl who accuses Mahal of stealing her boyfriend?

Anyway, back at Keanna, I noticed that day by day, my initial impressions about her changed. Instead of being showbiz, she became more real to her housemates. Eventually, she became the talk of the forums for her thick Visayan accent and her harmless innocence whenever she utters those classical punchlines such as "Lagi nila akong pinag-uusapan, hindi ko naman birthday." Things like that.

And when she was nominated for the first time for eviction, I told myself that I would cross the kajologan borders in order to save her. Along with Rustom Padilla, who I criticized for outing himself on National TV several weeks ago, I think they deserve to be on the finals.

I sincerely wish Keanna would be the last housemate to leave the PBB House.

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And for that, I'm spending a lot of my text loads just to vote for her. The hell with Roxanne the liar and Aleck the ungrateful friend.

I don't follow PBB, but for the sake of people being human to others,

I would do everything to ensure Keanna would be retained.

Time to vote again...

Multong Bakla

I'm not really sure if the ghost in the office was teasing me or not, but I swear, I saw a reflection of a guy on my screen who was wearing a white sando and was seated and stretching behind me. I thought it was just a mere "malikmata" but when I look around to see if there's a chair where the guy in the reflection was seated...

To my surprise, there was a chair at my back.

I don't know if the ghost was aware that I've been browing G4M all morning, thats why when he decided to make his presence felt, he made sure that instead of me getting scared...

I would get turned on.

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TL: Kilala mo ba yung nakaupo jan sa upuan mo tuwing night shift?

PM: Ah si _____!! Bakit?

TL: Jan rin sa upuan na yan may kumalabit sa kanya.

Trippy In Love

This is how I take my relationship nowadays.

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Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high.You've loved, lost, and loved again.You have had a wide range of love experiences.And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is high.It's your way or the highway when it comes to love.You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life.No question, you like to be the one calling the shots. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium.You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium.In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

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Special thanks to McVie the blogger for leading me to this website

And for Mami Athena, for letting me borrow her theme song, which surprisingly described me as well.

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Hold on tight,
you know she's a little bit dangerous.
She's got what it takes to make ends meet
the eyes of a lover that hit like heat.
You know she's a little bit dangerous

- Roxette, Dangerous

Need For Speed (Version One)

Lately I noticed that I got hots for hatchboxes.

Whenever I am on the road, seeing these cars makes my head turns. It makes me pause for seconds and just stare at the beautiful creation, like how I do when a cute guy passes right in front of me.

Honda Jazz

Sure thing, this Honda Jazz is an eye candy for me. There were a lot of times I imagined driving one myself. Too bad, It costs around P650K. Not even in 48 years will I acquire that kind of money.

Oh well, life is too short and priorities change everytime. Seriously, if someone would give me P700K (or I acquire it from miraculous sources overnight), chances are, I would just keep it in one of my bank accounts until I get even more.

But all is not lost though. With some luck, hardwork and proper management of finances, I'm pretty sure that I could have enough savings for this one in the next 2-4 years.

Kia Picanto

That is, if our last remaining family enterprise survives or if my working career progresses by huge leaps and bounds.

But considering how frugal I am when it comes to money... I believe that I won't be stupid or careless enough to spend huge chunks of my savings for this.

I have this sort of feeling that I might as well save enough for a Jazz before I get a Picanto.

Good thing, I can still dream. At least from time to time whenever I find some break from reality, I can still enjoy my passion for cars.

From having daysdreams of owning an Isuzu Gemini when I was still 6 years old (which was actually my first car when I got into 2nd year college.) to trading it with dreaming of driving a Toyota Corolla during the final years of my college,

At least I am still able to appreciate cars nowadays... despite my shift of life objectives.

However, one irony remains...

Inspite of my love for cars, I have never driven one in 4 years.

I used to have this student license back in high-school when my dad decided to enroll me in a driving school. But I never renewed it after it expired.

I eventually learned how to drive by sneaking out our FX during early mornings without any valid papers to support me.

When dad gave me a Gemini (despite my fervent request for a Toyota Corolla XL), I learned to enjoy it for a week but it also became the sole reason for me to completely stop driving,

When one evening, as I try to sneak it out from my mom, I accidentally "touched" the sides of a neighbor's FX.

It would have been reported to the police and had probably put me to jail but the neighbor forgave me.

Realizing how serious my carelessness was, added to the fact that we have just one car which is really important for my mom because of her disabilities,

I simply agreed to stop turning my dreams of driving to reality.

Until now...

Dear Pipay

Nakakaasar! Hindi kita makikita bukas sa YM. Lam mo ba, sa tuwing papasok ako sa umaga, ikaw at si Shaula ang unang hinahanap ko? Pano ba naman kapag nakita ko na kayong nakaonline dun, ibig sabihin ilang oras na lang at kulitan na naman tayo sa conference. Sa sobrang bitchy ko tuwing umaga, kayo lang ang nagpapasaya sa akin eh. Siguro naging trademark mo na ang "gandang umaga pare" at napabilang na yun sa routine ko kaya't hinahanap-hanap ko na sa tuwing nagkikita tayo sa YM.

Lam mo ba, sobrang flattered ako ng kaninang nalaman kong naninilip ka pala ng blog ko. Wala lang, sa sobrang angas mo, hindi ko inaasahan na lurker ka rin pala paminsan minsan (kahit na inookray mo rin naman ang mga entries ko). Salamat ha, taena, it means a lot pare.

Honga pala, tagal na kitang hindi nakakasama gumimik. Kelan ba yung last? Noon pa yatang nanood tayo ng Dungeons and Dragons hehe. Lam mo ba, sa tuwing nagkikita kami ni Ate Nate at ni Roy, laging napapagusapan ka namin. Wala lang, siguro dahil lagi naming naalala ang presence mo. Mula sa lantarang pagsasabi ng "gago" hanggang sa walang sawa mong pagtatanong tuwing nag ga-gayspeak kami, laging pinaguusapan namin yun kasabay ang pagpapasalamat at napabilang ka sa amin.

Swerte mo nga eh, ang bilis mong na-integrate kahit na aminin nating sobrang straight-curious mo pa para makarelate sa amin. Yung mga nauna sayo, mga hustler na pero dumaan pa rin sa karayom bago nakapasok sa grupo namin, karamihan sa kanila hindi rin na-integrate completely.

Naalala ko pa nung unang eyeball natin, tinanong ko pa si Roy kung mag-babakla-baklaan kami sa harap mo. Sabi ni Roy, mag Sprite daw kami kasi para kaming timang na nagpa-pare-pare pa kami sa harap mo eh sa totoo lang "ateh" ang tawag namin sa bawat isa. Buti nga hindi mo kami tinakbuhan eh, sa hitsura namin noon, ewan ko lang kung me tatagal saming barakong... katulad mo.

Ang bilis rin pala, parang kailan lang. Ilang lalaki na ba ang dumaan sa buhay mo? Tsk, lakas kasi ng alindog mo eh! Yun nga lang, masyado kang mapili. Naghahanap ka ng katulad ni ________ at ni ________ at ni _________ at pati na rin si Bunsoy ni Mami crush mo, pag kaharap mo naman, parang sino kang tameme na gusto mo kami rin ang kausap mo. Buti na nga lang at wala kami nung last date mo eh. Kung hindi, baka kami rin ang nag-entertain sa kausap mo kung meron saming nandun.

Pasensya ka na kung nabaling ang senti ko sayo ah! Taena, namiss ko lang talaga ang angas mo. O sha, hanggang dito na lang. Hayaan mo, hahanap kami ng bagong irereto sayo. Ikaw naman, wag ka na masyadong mapili ha. Kaya tuwang tuwa sayo ang mga bakla kasi naman kitang kita nila sayo ang sarili nila nung nagsisimula pa lamang sila.

Pustahan tayo tol, kapag ikaw na-devirginize, hahanap hanapin mo rin ang buhay na meron kami. Siguro sa unang pagkakataon, hindi ka magrereklamo kapag sex ang naging usapan namin. Yung mga kwento mo tungkol sa tsiks mo, balewala yun! Taena, kung nag-enjoy ako noon edi dapat hindi ako ganito ngayon. Basta ingat ka lang ha, at siguradong papadaanin mo muna sa meat inspection committee ang mga bagong date mo. Hanggang sa muli pare. Maging at home ka sana lagi sa barkada kahit na naka-sentro lagi sayo ang atensyon at pangtri-trip kapag kasama ka namin.

Pinatawad na rin kita sa pagbabasura mo ng mga mga M2M porn na pinahiram ko.

Ingat ka sana lagi pare... lalo na sa pangmamanyak ni Roy. Hehehe

Nagmamahal,

Ang iyong gurlalou,

Madonna

Soul Drive

Im so lazy to update my blog lately.

Probably because I have nothing really to say.

Perhaps because my new PC game takes most of my free time even to look around and see life.

I have even forgotten to use my digicam.

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But lately, my interest in gay affairs have been intensified by my presence in Pinoyexchange.

There's this guy who claims to be straight, with wife and kids of course who is looking for a "gay friend."

However, he also added that what he is looking for is a "gay friend" who would support him financially and shower him with gifts.

Of course, being one of the loudest voicest of gay empowerment in that forum, I began sending my barrages this morning.

Which of course, would lead to a new surge of thinking in that message board.

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Sometime ago, I would feel ashamed of my preference.

I thought it was a curse, something to hide from everyone.

But slowly, I began to accept myself in my own slow terms. After all, looking back at the past, this line of preference wasn't really bad at all.

If you would read history, you would find that some of the greatest people are in fact, homosexuals.

Their limitless creativity and courage has pushed civilization into new heights and existence.

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Now I'm thinking, would there ever be a time when true gay liberation would be realized?

Would there ever be a time when discrimination would completely cease to exist?

In some dream, I would like to see a gay president, or some very influencial homosexual person who would lead the world.

In that dream, the Church would finally declare that Jesus Christ has never even condemnmed homosexuals at all in any of his teachings.

If ever that time comes, I guess my acceptance would finally worth all the risk and troubles that I have taken.

That its fabulous to be out-gay after all.