It's like having a peaceful and carefree vacation.
Tucked away in the comforts of my own room, I spent the last two days playing sims in my PC and watching some of my favorite cartoons at Nickoledeon.
For the past several days, my boughts against depression and resentment for my dad had briefly subsided. It's like the things that are happening to us have finally sinked in.
The pain and the helplessness of being abandoned suddenly lost its shimmer. Perhaps, we're meant to be this way. Only the three of us are helping each other pull the household up.
At least, the occassional rivalry between me and my sis had taken a back seat. I think mom was successful on her pleas for us to work together, to create a harmonious environment at home that will stand even the greatest disasters. So far it works, despite my sister's apparent hypochondria, to my mom's concerning heart problems, to the countless mouths to feed at home aside from my family. Everything seems quite at peace. I just hope... and wish that this unusual calmness would stay for a while. I love the solace it brings despite the heavy pressures we have to face as the days roll by.
Lately, I find myself deeply attached to the characters I played in the Sims. It's like we're on the same shit, except that these beautiful simulated people are young, energetic and extremely beautiful. I wish changing careers and finding jobs would be that easy, as it is in the PC game. Thank God, this game brings sense to my empty being.
Late at night, before the clock strucks midnight, I stare at an empty space, looking at something that is isn't at point blank. Somehow, I would allow a moment of time to think what will happen the next day. In that blank space, I wish that someone would call me the following day, asking me for a final interview, a training, or a new opportunity. Days roll by, and all I would like to think about is that somewhere, a company is interested to adopt me.
Phanks dropped by this evening. I have to admit, he just came here for another shag. Ganun talaga ang walang keso eh, no motmots at the moment. We should contend ourselves doing it here...
Lately, I'm getting a grasp of how TOPs think. Ganun pala yun, kapag nakikita mo yung... parang atat na atat ka ipasok. Parang nararamdaman mo na kung gaano kainit... at kasikip yung glorybox na yun. Ampota, dati rati, reklamo ako ng reklamo na ano ba ang nakukuha na pleasure ng mga top sa popoy, ngayon heto ako nagpapantasya na makapag-top ulit ke...
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Pasensya na, hindi ako nakasipot sa Gilligans. My blog speaks for myself, konting belt tightening muna para sa akin. Masakit mang isipin pero ganito talaga eh. I'm banking on hope these days. It was hope who made me live as if everything remains normal.
Based on my mad and insane assumptions, we would only have less than a month before we completely loose all our reserved savings. I hope that in one month, some good institution would take me into their pack.
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Anyone care to converse with me about Spongebob Squarepants, As Told By Ginger, Invader Zim, Rocko's Modern Life, Hey Arnold, Real Monster, Deep Space Nine and Star Trek Enterprise with me? Honestly, they are my saving grace this past few weeks. These TV programs creates a basic routing of life for me. Ang galeeng.
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Dati rati, naikwento sa akin ni Francis Bocceli yung buhay niya as THE breadwinner. Somehow, I can understand everything now. Konti pa, dadaanan ko na yung mga pinagdaanan niya.
Tucked away in the comforts of my own room, I spent the last two days playing sims in my PC and watching some of my favorite cartoons at Nickoledeon.
For the past several days, my boughts against depression and resentment for my dad had briefly subsided. It's like the things that are happening to us have finally sinked in.
The pain and the helplessness of being abandoned suddenly lost its shimmer. Perhaps, we're meant to be this way. Only the three of us are helping each other pull the household up.
At least, the occassional rivalry between me and my sis had taken a back seat. I think mom was successful on her pleas for us to work together, to create a harmonious environment at home that will stand even the greatest disasters. So far it works, despite my sister's apparent hypochondria, to my mom's concerning heart problems, to the countless mouths to feed at home aside from my family. Everything seems quite at peace. I just hope... and wish that this unusual calmness would stay for a while. I love the solace it brings despite the heavy pressures we have to face as the days roll by.
Lately, I find myself deeply attached to the characters I played in the Sims. It's like we're on the same shit, except that these beautiful simulated people are young, energetic and extremely beautiful. I wish changing careers and finding jobs would be that easy, as it is in the PC game. Thank God, this game brings sense to my empty being.
Late at night, before the clock strucks midnight, I stare at an empty space, looking at something that is isn't at point blank. Somehow, I would allow a moment of time to think what will happen the next day. In that blank space, I wish that someone would call me the following day, asking me for a final interview, a training, or a new opportunity. Days roll by, and all I would like to think about is that somewhere, a company is interested to adopt me.
Phanks dropped by this evening. I have to admit, he just came here for another shag. Ganun talaga ang walang keso eh, no motmots at the moment. We should contend ourselves doing it here...
Lately, I'm getting a grasp of how TOPs think. Ganun pala yun, kapag nakikita mo yung... parang atat na atat ka ipasok. Parang nararamdaman mo na kung gaano kainit... at kasikip yung glorybox na yun. Ampota, dati rati, reklamo ako ng reklamo na ano ba ang nakukuha na pleasure ng mga top sa popoy, ngayon heto ako nagpapantasya na makapag-top ulit ke...
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Pasensya na, hindi ako nakasipot sa Gilligans. My blog speaks for myself, konting belt tightening muna para sa akin. Masakit mang isipin pero ganito talaga eh. I'm banking on hope these days. It was hope who made me live as if everything remains normal.
Based on my mad and insane assumptions, we would only have less than a month before we completely loose all our reserved savings. I hope that in one month, some good institution would take me into their pack.
---
Anyone care to converse with me about Spongebob Squarepants, As Told By Ginger, Invader Zim, Rocko's Modern Life, Hey Arnold, Real Monster, Deep Space Nine and Star Trek Enterprise with me? Honestly, they are my saving grace this past few weeks. These TV programs creates a basic routing of life for me. Ang galeeng.
---
Dati rati, naikwento sa akin ni Francis Bocceli yung buhay niya as THE breadwinner. Somehow, I can understand everything now. Konti pa, dadaanan ko na yung mga pinagdaanan niya.