Soul Drive

Im so lazy to update my blog lately.

Probably because I have nothing really to say.

Perhaps because my new PC game takes most of my free time even to look around and see life.

I have even forgotten to use my digicam.

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But lately, my interest in gay affairs have been intensified by my presence in Pinoyexchange.

There's this guy who claims to be straight, with wife and kids of course who is looking for a "gay friend."

However, he also added that what he is looking for is a "gay friend" who would support him financially and shower him with gifts.

Of course, being one of the loudest voicest of gay empowerment in that forum, I began sending my barrages this morning.

Which of course, would lead to a new surge of thinking in that message board.

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Sometime ago, I would feel ashamed of my preference.

I thought it was a curse, something to hide from everyone.

But slowly, I began to accept myself in my own slow terms. After all, looking back at the past, this line of preference wasn't really bad at all.

If you would read history, you would find that some of the greatest people are in fact, homosexuals.

Their limitless creativity and courage has pushed civilization into new heights and existence.

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Now I'm thinking, would there ever be a time when true gay liberation would be realized?

Would there ever be a time when discrimination would completely cease to exist?

In some dream, I would like to see a gay president, or some very influencial homosexual person who would lead the world.

In that dream, the Church would finally declare that Jesus Christ has never even condemnmed homosexuals at all in any of his teachings.

If ever that time comes, I guess my acceptance would finally worth all the risk and troubles that I have taken.

That its fabulous to be out-gay after all.

Evicted

It was very dark inside, in fact I think the aura is gloomy when I came in. The dancefloor was full of of people, but I can sense that their spirit was not there with them as they dance. Toy was the DJ that night but I can't feel the energy emanating from him as he spins his vinyls playing house tracks.

Everybody seems so sad and fleeting. Even Prinsipe who I saw there after so many weeks was also leaving for Europe. After the second time around, I felt that everything has changed after they renovated the place.

Before, when it was crampy, the color red was all over the place. Though the place was small it was fabulous, it was very gay, and it was awesome. Despite the heat and sweat, you feel the vibe from everyone who was there. You would be able to meet someone, even if you came there alone.

Now, the place was big, yet it appeared empty. The people gather around in their respective groups. And those groupings will make you feel unwelcome if you came there alone.

The dancefloor looks like an empty warehouse only the strobe lights and the awesome sound system makes it different from an jologs disco house. The darks spots proved to be very boring on weekdays. The more i realize it, the more I find the place...

Too bland.

Too lonely.

Its character being stripped off after a major overhaul took place last month.

I went to BED last Friday.

And the entrance fee alone had become a huge turn-off for me.

A very close friend who I saw there was right. For someone who has been involved with the club for so long, we shared the same sentiments after realizing what changes have done to our party place.

For the first time after being there ever since its beginnings 3 years ago.

We were rudely awakened by that fact that,

BED ain't home anymore.